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I am Madilyn. I'm underage but legal. I tend to fall for older guys. I'm afraid of commitment. I crave lust. I am known to have infatuations. I thought I found it. Yet I lost it. I am constantly confused I never know whats going on. I seem to lose everything that is important to me. I've done too many things to be forgiven. I am afraid to love. Seeming as every person I love vanishes before my eyes. I like uniqueness. I like diversity. I don't accept change that well. I don't know where I'm going. Or what to do really anymore.
I've lived in this shit hole for my whole life. I wouldn't give it up for the world. I've grown and blossomed. Met so many wonderful people over the past couple days, weeks, months. It amazes me. It is the cradle of nothingness. Centre to my devotion.
I'm usually not so mean, but I can get like this every so often. I act on thought. I'm usually a happy kid. I turn drugs to escape reality. But is reality really real? How do we escape logic? Gossip is the root to evil. Its what makes life interesting don't you think? Does it piss anybody else of that there is no cents sign on the keyboard?
I despise my mother for making me unable to love. She has ruined me. Fucking conceited drug abused bitch. Grr. I'm tired of the tears caused by her. I have other more important people to shed tears for. I'm sorry for the bad things I have done. Though I'm sure I won't be forgiven, or it won't be forgotten. I want people back. I missed out on a alot. I grew up to fast. But what are you going to do. I am rambling. I lost the best thing I ever had.
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Aren't we cute? Ha!
Rape
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Favorites
Movies:
The Hole Resident Evil The Wedding Singer Gingersnaps Practical Magic Donnie Darko
Books:
The Darkangel - Meredith Ann Pierce
Wolf Star - Tamara Pierce
Harry Potter!
Here's a list of some of my favorite music:
Placebo, KMFDM, ThreeDaysGrace, FingerEleven, Eve6, Marcy Playground, MarilynManson, Radiohead, Silverchair, Sum41, Sublime, Oasis, Matthew Good, I Mother Earth, Closure, Chevelle, Alexisonfire, Finch ... I like a lot of musical stylings .. you can bet there are more
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